It is easy, especially as a person who reads a lot of self-growth and productivity books, to believe that it is possible to achieve change all at once, or at least, within a brief period of time. After all, most of the stories in self-help books go this way: I was broke and unhappy, working in a job that made me miserable, etc. And one day, I decided that I had had enough of what life was dishing out to me, that I wanted more out of life, so I transformed my life for the better, changed my habits and I have never been happier than I am at the moment. 

After reading scores and scores of these kinds of testimonies, most of the writers of such works not being very detailed as to the step-by-step process it took for them to get to where they were in, I started to think that the recipe to change was to barge into it all at once; that to be productive and make something out of my life, I was going to have to make a lot of radical changes all at once and I sincerely thought that I was going to pull through with it.

During the pandemic period, I thought that it was going to be possible for me, as it is for most people that make New Year’s resolutions, to switch from someone that spent all of her time watching movies, scrolling through memes on social media, and generally loved wasting time and engaging in convenient and pleasurable activities, that felt good to her, to someone that exercised every single day, quit movies and social media cold turkey, and spent most of her time reading school books, self-help books, or taking courses.

And it did work, for like, the first few days in which the motivation and the adrenaline were still intact. But after some time, I crashed, plummeted, and fell back to the person that I was but with the added benefit of the guilt that I felt for not being able to maintain and build up the life that I wanted to build for myself, not being able to become the ideal person that I wanted to be.

Here is the thing: not only was I not ready to make the change that I wanted to make, but I did not even take the time to build up the system that I needed to make the change possible. I wanted to give up on social media and the likes, but I never made provisions as to what I was to do instead during the periods in which I felt such acute boredom, that I needed the distraction that I got from social media. When I worked out, I put too much pressure on myself, and hence I began to dread exercising because all that I could think of was the pain that I was going to subject myself to, pain that left my muscles sore for days at certain times. And I dreaded the boredom and pain of the life that I knew I would need to live to become the ideal person that I wanted to be.

And it has taken me an embarrassingly long time to learn, but now I know that if you think you can just turn your life around, transform all your bad habits all at once, and make yourself the ideal person that you want to become just after one day of planning, then you are setting yourself up for failure. And even though I do not have the statistical figures to say that there is a 100% chance of failure, I can say that most people that approach habit change this way are doomed to fail.

Now, do not get me wrong, one thing that I have found is that once you are intentional about change, even if you fail at changing some habits or developing new habits, you never really go back to being the person you used to be. So even though I could not maintain a lot of the habits that I tried to crash into, even when I went back, I never did truly go back to the person that I was before I decided that my life needed a change. Something had changed within me with all the books that I had read, the videos that I had listened to, and even the experiments that I had tried in a bid to change my habits, a change that was so fundamental that it reflected in the time that I got back to school after the pandemic and strike.

So yes, I had changed, and that change sustained me and enabled me to maintain the grades that I got in the university whilst participating in a lot of extra-curricular activities and so on, but that did not wipe away the guilt that I felt in not being able to sustain that habits that I wanted to sustain. There was still some part of me that I knew could use some change, but because I had not yet learned the lesson that with habit change, I needed to take it one step at a time, I never was able to achieve the change that I needed to achieve.

You see, change is like growth. In fact, when it comes to behavioural and habit change, both words can be used simultaneously when they are looked at in a positive light. So when you change your habits for the better, you are growing as a person. And human growth takes time, whether physical, mental, or spiritual. You cannot speed it up, cannot take gallops in growth. You just have to take it one step at a time.

And what do I mean by this? Many self-growth coaches preach something known as 1% growth in all areas of change. That means that even when you want to make a radical transformation, you have to have a 1% growth regularly until you get to where you wish to get, until you become the ideal person that you want to become. Even if you want a total transformation in your life, you have to know that this sort of thing will not be achieved within a short period, that it will take time.

Look at habit transformation as a skill that you have to learn. Now, I have been working on my typing skill, even though I do not practice every day. And one thing that I have noticed, one thing that every typing app and website that I have used teaches, is that at the first point, it is very difficult to master touch typing. Sometimes, you have to reduce your wpm to 10 until you can achieve close to 95 percent accuracy. Learning how to touch type during the first few months can be very frustrating and it is still frustrating for me at certain levels, but you cannot speed up the process or you will end up getting finger fatigue and achieve nothing.

In those first few months of learning any skill, you have to learn how to forgive yourself for the mistakes that you make along the process, in fact, be prepared for making a lot of mistakes. The important thing is that you should not give up on yourself and think that you will not be able to master that skill just because it has been very difficult for you in the first few months of trying to master the skill. But then, the great thing about learning a particular kind of skill is that the moment that you are able to wade through the first few tough months, it becomes very easy for you to speed up your growth process. So, for most typists, after they are able to reach up to 70 wpm or thereabout, reaching to 100 or 120 becomes very easy for them.

Habit change should be viewed through the same lens as learning a skill. As I can tell you for sure because I am still, for a lot of habits that I am working on, still in the beginning stages of hunting for the best steps to go about and maintain the routines that I want to maintain, it is difficult to get to change the bad habits that you have, habits which you must have stuck with for years and which have become a part of your being. Thinking that you can just stop a particular habit especially when there are cues all around that push you to perform that particular habit without ever missing the comfort that the old habits provided, is nothing but a fantasy. But deciding to improve on that habit in small bits at regular intervals, is a more plausible way to go about things.

What do I mean by this? Maybe you spend too much time watching movies and you want to end this because you are very much aware of the amount of time you are wasting on movies. Instead of just stopping movies entirely and deleting all the movies that you have on your phone, you could limit yourself to just one movie a day, then one movie every three days, and then one movie a week. Maybe you want to grow spiritually but are finding it difficult to. Instead of thinking that you can become a prayer warrior all of a sudden, you could start small and dedicate an amount of time, even if it is twenty minutes every day, to God and spiritual activities, and from there, you can incorporate spiritual books, .

And whenever you begin to work on yourself, you should be aware of the fact that you might stumble and crash to the ground. You may wake up after resolving to reduce your screen time and see yourself spending hours on end binge-watching a movie series. You could decide to be intentional about your walk with God and see yourself spending a week without remembering to perform your spiritual activities. Two instances could happen whenever you meet this kind of roadblock. The first is that you could decide that you can never change, as many people do when they encounter any sort of frustration or find themselves going against all that they have planned to do, going back to the habits that they decided that they were going to change. Or you could forgive yourself, know that this is just a part of the process, and kick yourself back into gear. The difference between the two choices you have to make is that one would lead to you remaining at the spot that you are and deciding to never change because you are afraid of failing or falling short of any expectations for yourself. The other would lead to a situation in which the little stumble that you had in the past would not even matter in the long run. Yet, we have a lot of people choosing to give up on themselves and their dreams of change simply because it was not the smooth, clear ride they expected it to be.

All in all, change is a slow, difficult process. As you work towards bettering yourself, be prepared to meet stumbling blocks in the way. But you should always ensure that you take change one step at a time so that you can always be prepared to meet whatever obstacles you might face along the way. Assuredly, no matter what pace that you are working with, as long as you continue moving and never relent, someday, you will become that ideal person that you want to be.